Succeed and fail, two of the most common words used in guidance counselor talks, rants of angry parents, to describe businesses, and in terms of life in general. From the time we are very small, fear of failure is instilled in us, and despite many attempts to say mistakes useful for learning, the message doesn't get across to most people. Mistakes don't always look very good on a resume.
At my age, I don't think I can yet quite define whether or not I am successful. While I do have a picture of success, being happy and making an effort to improve and be a good person, I have a feeling that overtime this image will become a bit different. Technically, I am successful since I try my best at pretty much everything and am fairly happy for the most part. I make good grades, but succeeding in life and in school feel like two very different things to me. Failure is very important as well. I don't tend to handle failure very well, and will try to avoid it for the most part, but it also depends on the degree of failure. In school, a bad grade isn't the end of the world as long as I learn something from it and try to correct the mistake. The threat of failure pushes me to try harder. Failure is only useful if you take advantage of it. Many times while sketching for fun, I stop halfway through and abandon drawings, believing they are inadequate and that I can not fix them. While this is small scale failure, it does say something about me. If I think something is going to fail, I am likely to give up on it in some cases. In other cases however, always failing has made me better at not giving up. Writing had often been like sketching for me: I'd start and give up early on. I had so many scrapped beginnings of stories that one day I decided I was actually going to plan an entire novel out. While the story it is becoming has strayed incredibly far from the original concept, and I only work on it sporadically, I have still not given up on that story because I want to have one success out of all of the failed beginnings I have created and I believe I can finish it. In the future, as more successes and failures come I am sure that my entire perspective will greatly shift. Ten years from now I will have probably finished school and be out in the world doing something or another to try to support myself. Success at that point would be to be either in a profession I love, or on track to get there, and probably still being a kind and happy person in general. I would love to go into some sort of artistic field, whether it is writing, story boarding, game designing, acting, or something else entirely. However, maybe I'll find another job that I'd like even more and have art as a hobby. Whatever I do, I will need to get experience/ training for it, and most likely a college degree as well. I'll have to find an occupation that I have a passion for, and think about what school and activities will best help me reach that job. Before any of that, I'll have to survive the rest of high school, getting good enough grades and doing enough extra-curricular activities so that I can get into a good school and get a job that I like. Part of the plan is to make a more through plan for the next few years as I start to decide what I really want to invest myself in. Mostly, I just want to make sure that in ten years I am a better person than I am today. If I can accomplish that, I think I can consider myself successful.
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